Passing the Daze

Hard to believe that the little snidge is now 19 days old. Little Peach is not so little any more – she’s growing like a weed and has out-grown a few of her newborn-sized sleepers and jumpers already.

So what’s it like to have become a dad? I wish I could summarize in a few words but it’s just not possible. Here’s a list of some of the feelings that I go through, usually within the span of an hour or less.

• amazement that baby Peach is actually ours
• frustration when she fusses or cries and we don’t know why
• fatigue due to both lack of sleep and running around
• disgust that such a beautiful little girl can make such UGLY diapers!
• shock that our tiny baby can fill so many diapers in such a short time
• happiness just holding her in my arms and watching her face
• thrills seeing her gaze into my eyes and smile
• concern when Mom or I get tired and frustrated with her constant feeding or fussing
• disappointment that we don’t have the same freedom to get up and go do something
• intense pride showing her off to others

No doubt there are more that I’ve missed, but it’s been the most intense and amazing whirlwind of emotions you can imagine. Mix in severe sleep deprivation at times and you can magnify this all by a factor of 10.

And when I stop to think about it, there’s not a lot I’d like to change.